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chaos61988
06 October 2007 @ 03:17 pm
Ok time to open up these things again, whew it's been a while.

Here's how it'll go.

If you want a commission from me please NOTE me the details of your comission. i like to keep record of these things. i will most likely IM you personally after i recieve your request to ask questions etc. i will work with you to make sure you get what you want.

IMPORTANT: PLEASE STAY IN CONTACT so i can ensure that this happens.

my method is rough sketch, then you pay, then i complete, showing you progress at each stage.


SKETCHES: 15$ Ex.

* additional characters: 15$ USD per character
* background: 10$

INKS: 30$ USD Ex. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/793256/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/797367/

FULL COLOR w/ Simple Background: 50-60$ ex. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/797502/

CONBADGES w/Tribal Backing: 20$


****obviously prices will shift depending on the complexity of the piece****

to those that requested commissions last session and i didnt get to yours ill try to put you first in line, i hope to finish everyones this time even if i have to print out your reference sheets and take them to class with me >_>;;

also, to those that i have trades going on with no i havent forgotten you, i just realized that i actually need money to live -___-

i also owe cobaltous a wrestling themes pic of scesmoon but i think ill let it wait, i need to stop drawing myself for a while :0


anyways that's that. hopefully somebody wants art from me in the world. if i forgot anything or if you have questions please ask, ill be happy to edit this journal and/or answer them.

-Chaos Ω-
 
 
Mood: anxiousanxious
 
 
chaos61988
30 September 2007 @ 07:57 pm
As i sit on my bed and think about the world i have to walk back out into tommorrow on sunday nights i always wonder..Is this what i live for? i chuckle and think about the 85% percent of the world (maybe more) that seriously believe that this is all there is to life. It's disgusting i think..this is what i world has become?

Are You Fucking Serious?!

I mean..we go to school just to get a piece of fucking paper. Why doesnt anyone have the will to take it upon themselves to learn their trade. School is for the unwillful. Anything you can learn by paying someone you can learn for free. TRUST ME.

Read a fucking book. Learn to communicate. Try without being forced to do so. Try Harder.

I dont want to become a "certified" artist really. i dont need a piece of paper from a school to tell me i have the skills to do great art. and we do all this for what exactly? To have the accreditation to get a "real" job?

You really want to live in such a vicious cycle?, or do you just "accept it" and say nothing, moving like the drones in a colony like society wants you to. Blinded by the billions that we spend on advertising and commercial, dumbing the masses down into the trenches of stupidity and ignorance. trust me..as society "thrives" humanity becomes stupider(er.)

heh..the first thing i expect to hear from someone would be "your just a kid, your perspective will change and youll get over it like everyone else has"

i've got a question for you: You beleive that "getting over" something makes you less cowardly? Cause i dont. I belive that most people are afraid to live without the stability of out oh so wonderful society to back them up at EVERY. SINGLE. TURN.

Promising healthcare so that one day we'll be immortals! oh what a glorius fucking day that'd be! we'd all go running around forever old as dirt and the world would become so fucking stagnant because of lack of change that we'd all get bored. or are we already bored? i sure as hell am.


what do you live for i wonder. what keeps you in your place in this retardified world? what keeps you acting as The Gear; The Drone; The Unit; The Soldier; The Cog, in the machine that is THIS WORLD.

..i seriously wonder... because i dont want to be apart of it..not now not ever. and i seriously dont understand how everyone else can go about their lives knowing their controlled by this GODLY (not) force known as society. HOW DO YOU DO IT.

i seriously wonder...how somethign as simple as life..can be twisted into the abomination i see it as.

Ridden of it's Simplexity.

-Chaos Ω-
 
 
Mood: aggravatedaggravated
 
 
chaos61988
23 September 2007 @ 05:21 pm


Well i posted this story once on FA (where hardly anyone reads...) so i wondered how it would fare on a sight where almost all you do IS read. Hopefully someone here will also enjoy it.

Tell me what you think.

***warning: male x male anal and oral sex to follow.***

This is a story about Scesmoon and Sefyrayne that was written by Twilitdawnknown as a gift to me..we collaborated on it closely.
Characters and concepts© chaos61988 & twilitdawnknown


The unicorn-and-nightmare hybridized beast was in trouble, he knew that. It wasn't enough that he'd been dead and wandering the planes of the world as a disembodied spirit for what seemed like an eternity, nor was it enough that he'd been turned against the one person in the world who treated him with true respect, nor even that he'd somehow come back alive not long ago. Scarcely a week had passed before he'd run into Tarkhaan, his bitterest rival from even before his days with his paradoxical mentor and lover. The beast was, phenotypically, a cross between a dingo and a jackal--ugly, with a temper to match, but with a brute strength honed by genes tempered by years of survival in the wild.....
 

NOTE: There was a Second Version of this story with an alternate ending if you'd like to see it; hopefully you have an FA account because it wont show you otherwise.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/634008/
 
 
Mood: amusedamused
Music: Angel Main Theme-Sanctuary - Darling Violetta
 
 
chaos61988
29 August 2007 @ 06:04 pm
i dont know about everyone in the world i can only talk about myself, and i dont think im a loon and im sure a lot of people would agree that im not. however i  just want to ask.

is it really so crazy to want to only work for yourself in this world? is it really such a sky high aspiration? i dont want to work for anyone..EVER. i dont care how you or your mother or whoever else you know made their way in this retarded place but i dont plan on letting my life be dictated to me by society. i dont want to be controlled in any sense of the word..by my job. PERIOD.

is that really so up there and in the sky to want for yourself? am i really so dense just because i dont aspire for a huge house and all the money in the world etc? or am i just one of those guys who actually knows how stupid things like that really are?

ill tell you something about me and my philosophy on life. im young..i am..im 19

HOWEVER

power and fortune is worldly and temporary, dreams are everlasting..i plan on living those because i have nothing else i want to live for.

-Chaos Ω-
 
 
Mood: aggravatedaggravated
 
 
chaos61988
26 August 2007 @ 09:33 pm
yep..read it and weep x3


DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Low
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Moderate
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

-- Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Information --

 
 
Mood: amusedamused
 
 
 
chaos61988
25 July 2007 @ 09:53 am

this retarded drama reminds me the cold war between the US and the USSR so i wrote a lil story for you guys x3

this is the "gist" of it i think..

....so once upon a time there was a war (not) in which somone held the domain name to a website called furaffinity, he took it hostage and demanded ransom for it.

when his demands were not met the site went bye bye for about an HOUR


DRAMA ENSUED.


after about an hour of hostile negotiations (NOT) dragoneer  dragoneer said:

LET THERE BE LIGHT and flipped a switch in his basement and there was in fact LIGHT.

the end. :3

anyone for tea and crumpets?



EDIT: Yes i am ROFLMFAO drowning in lulz.


 
 
chaos61988
15 July 2007 @ 01:49 am


..dissapointment proves me right again...



it's an irritating thing ignorance is. i took on a friend younger then myself, at the time he really seriously wanted to be my friend and as you all probably know my reaction was..not amused to say the least. however eventually i did warm up to him. funny that in the end i became more loyal to him then he was to me.

oh foolish me for thinking this kid knew what the fucking meaning of loyalty to a friendship was. fuck he yiffs everyone and their brother and even has 2 "mates"

yet still i remained his friend as much as these facts annoyed me. i tried to teach him to be more civil online and less open to heartache and pain, for most relationships of this sort end in flames. but no. the first time that i decided to really try to help him, he decided he was too good for my help and he avoided me like a walking plague..how quaint.

i told him tonight, no i asked him, are we still friends? because i never stopped considering you a friend. i just want to know if i should stop wasting my time or not.

his reply:

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As much as I detest saying this... you're better off without me as a friend...

12:57:31 AM chaos61988: whatever dude, you didnt want me as a friend for a while now. your dramatics are a simple mask, easily shattered.

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he played the dramatic victim as always. he didnt want me as a friend anymore, for oh noez i had violated the sanctity of his little yiff circle of happiness and joy..with what praytell? the TRUTH? REALITY? the fact that..hmm roughly 95% of furry relationships..just..yeah? not even counting that he was a minor and his "mate" was not?

frustrating really...for me anyways.

my last few words to him before i blocked and removed him from my contact lists:

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1:04:38 AM chaos61988: i cared about you dude, i really did despite how many times you dissapointed the hell out me i always came back to help you.

whatever, this time you wont hear from me again. i promise you. the only reason i IMed you today was to confirm the truth. your mind really is as young as your body.

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oh well, i guess this proves my first instinct is usually correct. people who come "shopping" for friendship are often the most shallow. and are always the first people to stab you in the fucking back.

i wont make that mistake again.

why am i so cynical? because a dissapointing world proves me right again and again...and again... i never fail to be dissapointed. even when i try my damnedest to avoid it.

once again the tiger is wounded for giving this world a chance.


"and the truth shall set you free."

-Chaos Ω-
 
 
Mood: apatheticapathetic
 
 
chaos61988
24 June 2007 @ 03:00 am

A friend convinced me to take this test..and tho i hate them i did it anyway..even though i knew the answer to the test before i even started. Describes me perfectly...sadly im a tad more nuetral than it makes me out to be..otherwise all of these things are perfectly correct about me, want to know a little about me? this would be an excellent reference..not saying im that simple to read but at least its a fair amount of insight.

 
 INTj - The Mastermind


      "You are more introverted than extroverted.  You are more intuitive than observant, you are more thinking based than feeling based, and you prefer to have a plan rather than leaving things to chance.  Your type is best described by the word "mastermind", which belongs to the larger group called rationals.  Only 1% of the population shares your type.  You are very strong willed and self-confident.  You can hardly rest until you have things settled.  You will only adopt ideas and rules if they make sense.  You are a great brainstormer and often come up with creative solutions to difficult problems.  You are open to new concepts, and often actively seek them out.
As a romantic partner, you can be both fascinating yet demanding.  You are not apt to express your emotions, leaving your partner wondering where they are with you.  You strongly dislike repeating yourself or listening to the disorganized process of sorting through emotional conflicts.  You see your own commitments as self-evident and don't see why you need to repeat something already expressed.  You have the most difficulty in admitting your vulnerabilities.  You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires the quality of your innovations and when they listen respectfully to your ideas and advice.  You need plenty of quiet to explore your interests to the depth that gives you satisfaction."

Your group summary:  http://keirsey.com/personality/nt.html
Your type summary:   http://keirsey.com/personality/ntij.html


 

...and the song of the day is...

Lucifer's Angel - The Rasmus



Behind those eyes lies the truth and grief
Behind those beautiful smiles I've seen tragedy
The flawless skin hides the secrets within
Silent forces that secretly ignite your sins

Fly away, fly away
From the torch of blame
They haunt you
The Lucifer's Angels
Never lived, you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
The Lucifer's Angel

Beyond these clouds you can hide all your tears
Beyond this world you'll be safe from their wicked fears
And in their hearts they fear your demands
You know their minds won't accept you, they'll never understand

Fly away, fly away
From the torch of blame
They haunt you
The Lucifer's Angels
Never lived, you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
The Lucifer's Angel

On your own I know you can make it
Truth or bone. I know you can shake it
Survive alone I know you can take it

Fly away, fly away
From the torch of blame
They haunt you
Lucifer's Angels
You never lived, you never died
Your life has been denied
They call you
Lucifer's Angel

Fly away, fly away
Run away, run away
Hide away, hide away
Lucifer's Angel
[x3]

 
 
chaos61988
23 June 2007 @ 02:49 am


This has to be one of my favorite songs of all time, just thought id share it with you guys.
Arabic and english at its best. very deep..very powerful..and very passionate.
its pretty old but still retains its appeal...i hope you enjoy it.

Desert Rose - Sting ft. Cheb Mami





I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of fire
Those dreams are tied to a horse that will never tire
And in the flames
Her shadows play in the shape of a man's desire

This desert rose
Each of her veils, a secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this

And as she turns
This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams
This fire burns
I realize that nothing's as it seems

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of rain
I lift my gaze to empty skies above
I close my eyes
This rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of her love

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

Sweet desert rose
Each of her veils, a secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this

Sweet desert rose
This memory of Eden haunts us all
This desert flower
This rare perfume, is the sweet intoxication of the fall
 
 
Mood: restlessrestless
 
 
chaos61988
22 June 2007 @ 08:11 pm
a self serving revelation...in the form of a poem.



if i ever have kids..

ill do everything in my fucking power...

to make sure i dont become like society makes most parents become...

better yet..i just had another revelation..

i just wont have any kids..ever..

..id rather not bring a life into this world to deal with it's stupidity..

PS. if i ever change my mind on this subject..

ill make sure i have a gun very nearby and do myself and the child(ren) a favor.

amen.
 
 
Mood: cynicali was serious the first time..